Dreamt

Have you ever dreamt you are awake?

Everyone must have

Have you ever wished you were asleep?

Everyone must have

Have you ever changed anything in you life?

I hope everyone has

It’s all about a change

A change of perception

A change of redemption

A conflicting feeling

Everyone feels restless sometimes, Don’t they?

Defy you, defy me, and defy the meaning

It makes you feel so high

To know you can change this

Who could care less, about this mess

There is no need to stress

There is no need to confess

Don’t try to debate it, you are just restless

Everyone can change it

Everyone can change anything

Anything they like

Like who they are

Are they anyone?

Anyone indeed

Indeed, they needed me

Just try to smile

For a small and little while

Ignore this dangerous foray

Onto a lonely mile

You are probably dreaming anyway

I dream I am awake

I dreamt I was asleep

Us

So first there was you

Then there was me, or maybe

Maybe, I might have it wrong

I remember me, being here before you

Then there was you

All of you and me

We all felt so free.

But I don’t have to worry anymore

No one else really knows me anymore

Not that I ever really worried anyway

Time passed me by

So quickly

Throw yourself, crash right through

Break through

Come crashing in

I welcome you

All of my friends

I’m thankful for the company

Although it doesn’t help me, in any-way

It might help you to feel less alone

Should I care for you - people

Let you care for me

We might be happy

If you crashed into my life

They call it my strife

I think that’s kinda crappy

We should try to stay friends

Though the group will grow ever distant

The times we shared remain ever reminiscent

Of the happier times

Here’s to old friends gone

Gone but not forgotten

Now times are different

We are left with nothing but the memories

I never meant to hurt anyone

The only one that got hurt was me

I wish

Some say, I wish I’d;

Some say they wish they’d died

I say

I say I wish I’d never

I wish I’d never met you

I say

I say I’d wish I’d never let you

Tear me in two

You tear me in two

I let you tear me in two

I don’t know why

Some wish

Some wish they could last forever

They don’t want to die

I still

I still don’t know why

I will last forever

This will last forever

Don’t you ever,

Ever doubt me

Because I can see

They way I wish we’d be

The way I wish we’d been

I wish I knew why

Some times

Some times I’d cry

No-one asks me why

Why would you care?

I still wish we’d try

To just gaze upon the sky

Take in all the wonder

With my arm round your shoulder

Things would be fine

They can’t tell me why

Some sort of reason

Some kind of meaning

I’ve lost my way

I didn’t get my way

I’m losing you

I don’t know what I can do

To keep you

Help me please

Why won’t you help me, please?

You can’t tell me why

Something’s changed

Something’s been re-arranged

It’s not the way I feel about you

It’s something new

I’ve lost you

I’ve lost you

I don’t know why

Please tell me why

How could I lose you?

Why have things gone this way

I wish I’d never tried

I wish you’d never lied

I wish this feeling would subside

It felt like I died

But I will last forever

Will I ever feel this for another?

Why did we even bother?

I wish for the others

To understand

I wished for you

I wished for you

I still wish for you

This wish is not enough

I wish for you

No more

I am the stone

They say I’m as cold as stone

How little they know me

I can’t explain what I feel

You can’t blame me

I try to explain what I feel

I fear they will stone me

I can’t explain what I feel

They might get to know me

She thinks I’m as hard as stone

How little she knows me

I want to know her

She thinks I’m a stone

How do I do this?

What do I make of this?

What do I feel about this?

Can I do this?

Tell me how

Why do I find this so hard?

Can you tell me what to do?

I fear I know nothing

How could anyone love me?

I put my life in her hands

I wish she would hold me tightly

I don’t think she trusts me

How rightly

How do I do this?

What do I make of this?

What do I feel about this?

Can I do this?

Tell me I don’t have to

Why would she wrong me?

How could she hurt me?

They told me

I thought I knew me

She breaks herself off me

She pounds against me

I don’t think I can take this

I never wanted this

How do I do this?

What do I make of this?

What do I feel about this?

Can I do this?

Tell me it’ll be alright

She thinks I’m a stone

I am her anchor

I feel so alone

How could I miss this?

She casted me aside

She threw me like a stone

She knew I felt alone

How little she knew me

How do I do this?

What do I make of this?

What do I feel about this?

Can I do this?

Please tell me anything

I am her stone

I am the stone

I hurt me

I blame me

Contradiction

The contradiction confuses me

You are the contradiction

How can you contradict this?

Why do you contradict me?

You are the fantastic

You cut me down, when I need it least

You hold me tight when I want it the most

You are my weakness

Contradict me, please

Please contradict me

Tell me I’m wrong

Be the right one for me

Try for me

Cry for me

Hurt for me

Contradict me

Seeing you happy, makes me feel bad

Knowing you hurt too, makes me feel glad

I hate myself for loving you

I hate you because I loved you

You are my contradiction.

Contradict me, please

Please contradict me

I need you to contradict me

Be my contradiction, please

I can’t face this kind of addiction

Please be my contradiction

Please be my contradiction

Why do I want to be contradicted?

Why do I want to be this addicted?

Why do I feel so conflicted?

I don’t know why I feel this way.

I think I like it

I know I hate it.

I am a contradiction

I lack the conviction to shake your addiction

You are my contradiction

I am a contradiction

Me

Who are we?

I am me, I just am.

I’ll try to tell you different, if I can

I’ll try to hide me, if I can

Why would you put me through this?

I can’t believe me

You hurt me

Tell me you didn’t do this?

You and me, we are not the same.

Why do we bother?

Me, I don’t understand

Why are we obsessed with one another?

Why would you put me through this?

I can’t believe me

You hurt me

Tell me you didn’t do this?

I hide me, from you

It hurts me to see you.

I am so me

I need someone to free me

Why couldn’t that be you?

Why would you put me through this?

I can’t believe me

You hurt me

Tell me you didn’t do this?

You threw me

You saw right through me

You won’t believe me

You don’t need me

I don’t want to do this

I felt so foolish

I always knew this

You used to complete me

Why can’t you be you

Try

How do you do it?

I mean to ask you why

How can you do it?

I mean to ask you to try

I don’t know:

Where to go,

What to do,

How to try,

You ask me why

But you never tried

It’s not my fault

You never tried

I still don’t know:

Why things worked out like this,

How I could have fixed this,

How to try

Was this me?

I think it was you

You strike me

I think I hurt you

I don’t think you know:

Why things worked out like this,

How could you have done this?

How to try

You never tried

We never tried

We should have tried

How I wish we’d tried

No-one knows:

How I feel for you,

Why you did this

How to try

I must try

A Lie?

I never thought it would be like this

I always thought there’d be more than there is

It’s not how I imagined it would be

Do you agree with me?

Try as I may, I just don’t buy this lie

Much as I try to unravel, untie

All the hidden things that hide inside, this life

Do I try too hard, to enjoy playing with a deadly sharp knife?

Don’t worry, I’m quite good at this stuff

I can lend my hand to anything

Anything in this life

So they tell me anyway, so they lie to keep this lie, true

There must be more than this

Why fight for all that this is

I’m sure I know why

To protect the lie

Would you die for a lie?

Would that make it true?

I don’t believe it, I don’t have to

Because I’m looking

Looking for more than this

 Hurry

We have to hurry

We need to rush

We don’t want to miss it

No time to rest

This is not a test

I suspect we’ll need to push

To get on this bus

We’ll have to rush

We’re going to miss it

I would not forgive it

For happening

Without me

I can’t believe

We might miss it

Don’t you worry

We still must hurry

 S for Song

She’s so amazing

I don’t know why

Why, I

Feel the way I do

It’s not right,

That I feel this way after just one night

After just one fatal glimpse

Of the world she holds

Do I

be so bold

To think that I

Could hold it too

She’s amazing, she’s so cool

She’s intelligent, interesting

I’m the fool

She’s so fine

She’ll never be mine

Unfinished

Have you ever longed for something?

Something, anything?

Something worth having

Maybe it’s not?

Did it make you happy?

Probably not.

Have you ever longed for someone?

So much that it hurt

Sometimes it’s the longing that hurts.

I want someone more fragile than me,

Not more breakable.

I want someone I’m afraid I might break.

I want to have to try not to.

I want to have that choice.

I don’t want to be afraid of what you…

What you can become.

I’m not afraid of you.

I’m more afraid of what you make me.

Of what you make me become.

Why do you paint me in such an ill light?

I gave myself such an awful fright.

I don’t think I can stand the sight,

of myself,

in this true a light.

Happy for once

I don’t know what to say

I am just speechless

I have that happy feeling

The one you can’t describe

Like walking on the ceiling

Like running in the rain

Taking away the pain

Of everyday of being

Just for a while

I think I’ll stay this happy

Just for this short while

No one can stop me

They’ll never throw me

They don’t even know me

Let them try

I’ll never cry

But back to my ceiling-feeling

I’d love to tell you what I’m feeling

But I just can’t explain it

I don’t know why I feel it

My happy feeling

It’s fine by me

Someone please tell me

How can I feel this way again?

And now this is a running feeling

I don’t want to lose this feeling

I’m not interested in causing jealousy

That would make this a fallacy

I feel all warm inside

But I know it’s going to fade

Can I trade?

All I know, for all of this again.